The End...

We got the results of our pregnancy test and unfortunately they were negative. I was not really surprised at this news. When I think back to our last IVF cycle everything was so perfect and went so smoothly. Even from the beginning we could just feel that we were going to have twins and they were going to be a boy and girl. This time was much different. My body was not handling this cycle the same. I have been taking progesterone shots for 16 days and it has been horrible. I have become allergic to the progesterone and every shot would result in a welt that ranged from the size of a golf ball to a baseball. This cycle will make our 8th failed attempt during our different fertility treatments we have done. But we have decided that instead of looking at all the failures we are going to look at the 1 cycle we did have work that resulted in our twins!

This journey that we have been on has been a real blessing to us and as hard as it has been I wouldn't change it. We have gotten to experience what its like to have God guide you through a valley in your life and to bring you out of it. As disappointed as I am to not get to have the other two babies and I will always wonder what they would have been like. My eyes are now opened to how easy it would have been to not of gotten Eli and Aly. This lesson was so clear today that it almost scares me and makes me want to hold on to them and not let go. It was easy to fall into the idea that since I had gotten pregnant with them that this cycle would be a breeze and I should get pregnant no problem. However today's results taught me otherwise.

This cycle was our last attempt at getting pregnant. I want to thank everyone for their prayers and words of encouragement over the last couple of years. You have helped make our dreams come true. And we will forever be thankful for you all being there as we went through our journey to get these two wonderful babies!

Embryo Transfer #2!!

Today was the big day we had our final embryo transfer!! It was a very surreal moment to know that is was our final chance to add to our family forever! As we went in we both walked in with the thought that the transfer today is the beginning to a whole new phase of our lives no matter what the outcome and we are ready for whatever God has in store for us.  

But onto the appointment! Everything went great and we transferred 2 perfect little embryos! As you can see in the picture the one on the left looks different. The doctor said that it is already hatching which is a great sign. It also doesn't mean that the other embryo is less likely to stick because when we transferred Eli and Aly neither of them had started hatching either. 

The last time I had this process done the worst part was when they made you drink 24 ounces of water 1 hour prior to the transfer. Well once again I can say that it is still definitely the worse part lol They were running a bit behind schedule so by the time I got back in the room my bladder was too full for them to do the procedure. So they allowed me to urinate for 10-15 seconds and then hold the rest. I can tell you that this was pretty miserable. But the actual transfer part was done in about 10 minutes. The second picture of the ultrasound is showing them releasing the embryos into the uterus which is pretty cool!

But now the hard part begins...The dreaded two week wait. I know anyone who has had problems getting pregnant knows that this can feel like the longest two weeks of your life. During the wait I have to continue taking my progesterone injections, progesterone pills, and estrogen pills.

A lot of people have asked if we want one or two this time and I can honestly say I want them both. I know that it may sound crazy but I already feel attached to them both! After having Eli and Aly from this same process it really brings into perspective that these little embryos really are our future children. At one point Eli, Aly, and these other two embryos were actually in a lab together waiting to find out who got transferred first. I'm sure this is going to be an interesting story to explain to our children some day but I am so thankful once again to get this opportunity to grow our family!

I have figured out during this FET cycle that it has felt so much different than our IVF round that we did with Eli and Aly. But I finally figured out that it is because when we were trying to get pregnant with Eli and Aly we were so desperate. And it was not desperation really coming from a good place it was coming from a place of brokenness from all the failed fertility treatments. When we had them that area of our lives was finally fulfilled. With these two embryos its different. We want them just as much but instead its coming from a motherly place of we want them simply because they are ours and we want to add to the family we already have!

We have our blood test in a few weeks but we plan on doing the same as we did last time where if we become pregnant we will wait to announce it until after we have an ultrasound! But as soon as we can announce it we will let everyone know!!

Please just keep us in your prayers over the next few weeks! We've known all through this that God has a plan for us with these embryos. Right now though we are just at the waiting point to find out if its to bless us with more kids or possibly a lesson as a good reminder to never take for granted the two we have already been blessed with. So we ask for you just to pray for us to have peace during the wait and that everything continues along perfectly as it has so far! Thank you all for your encouragement and prayers! And I pray the next time you all hear from us we have great news to share!